Our little boy is due 1 month from today!!
As far as the actual pregnancy itself, I have had it fairly easy.Â (The getting thereâ€¦well, thatâ€™s another story.) And, Iâ€™ve generally felt pretty good the whole time.Â So, it really has gone by incredibly fastâ€¦at least from my perspective.Â We announced it fairly early, so I know to some, it seems like I have been pregnant forever.
But, either way, it is still a little unreal when I think about just how close we are to meeting our son!!
Especially when I consider that, not too long ago, I really didn’t think we would ever have another (biological) child…
I want to be thankful. For every moment. For every time I get to hear his steady heartbeat. For every ache. For every time I get to see him (via ultrasound).Â For every sleepless night. For every time I get to feel his little (and not so little!) kicks.
Because, I realize now, maybe more so than I did with Hannah, that this time is not simply something to be taken for granted…to be enduredâ€¦to get throughâ€¦
The truth is, I donâ€™t know, not just when, but if Iâ€™ll ever get to experience it again.Â And I donâ€™t want to miss out on one moment.
I wouldnâ€™t wish the pain and struggle of infertility and miscarriage on anyone. But, sometimes I do wonderâ€¦if more women did have to deal with it, would they â€“ could they â€“ still take these precious moments for granted?
I wonâ€™t.Â I canâ€™t.
Hannah is my first child.Â So, being pregnant with her was a totally new experience.Â I enjoyed and treasured every new stage, and flutter, and hiccup, and kickâ€¦Â Then, as a newborn, and as a toddler…and now as â€œkidâ€ â€“ everything she did was new, and exciting, and special.
But, in the back of my mind, I always assumed I would get to experience it all againâ€¦and relatively soon.
I never dreamed I would have to wait so longâ€¦
Even though it didnâ€™t happen the way I would have planned it, or in theÂ time frameÂ that I would have preferred, I am thankful to have gone through it. Because, I can no longer take the ability to get pregnant for granted. Â And, I will no longer assume that I am guaranteed a repeat of this experience.
So, even though I can no longer see my toes (I canÂ reach them!!)â€¦ I am still just so amazed, and so thankful for this precious,Â unexpected blessing!