Category Archives: Secondary Infertility

Rachel Has Some BIG News!


Someone is going to be a BIG sister!
Baby is due to join our family
on, or around, Thanksgiving Day!

We have so much to be thankful for!


Please see update here.


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It’s A…

Okay. I’ll admit it. I’m a “peeker.” I like that I can find out baby’s gender before he or she is born. I like using pronouns other than “it” to describe my child. Plus, I like to plan.

I know that “gender reveal” parties are quite popular right now. But, just like waiting until baby is born to find out if we have a boy or a girl would make me crazy, I don’t think I could stand not knowing my baby’s gender – even for a short time – while other people know.

At the same time, I do kind of get the appeal. It has been fun to come up with creative ways to announce what baby is to the big siblings. So, we do our own version of a gender reveal party.

When we found out Titus was a boy, we went to Target and bought some blue onesies for Hannah to open up. I guess we made it a tradition by buying some pink jammies after Rebekah’s ultrasound.


Today was our “big” ultrasound! Of course, our first priority was to make sure that baby was healthy and developing normally.

All Snuggled Up

All Snuggled Up

After the appointment, we headed home to tell the big brother and big sisters the news!


We got a neutral bag so we wouldn’t give anything away.

It was so fun to watch the news sink in after they opened the bag!

Big Brother

Big Brother Titus holding the PINK Burp Cloths

It's a...


It's a girl?!?!

It’s a girl?!?!


Oh brother… (No. Despite how it looks, he really was excited. He has been saying that baby is a girl all along!)

Daddy & Big Sister Rebekah are Excited!

Daddy & Big Sister Rebekah are Excited!

The Happy (and Surprised!) Big Sister

The Happy (and Surprised!) Big Sister

Yes, it looks like Titus is still outnumbered. It’s a GIRL!!!

Our Baby Girl

Our Baby Girl


Our little girl is growing, and developing right on track. But, during the ultrasound, it was discovered that I have a slight placenta previa. I am not overly concerned, as I had a “low lying” placenta with Titus, and placenta previa with Rebekah. In both cases, the placenta moved as baby grew, and my doctor seems confident that is what will happen this time as well. But, I would appreciate your prayers to that end. If things don’t change, we will be looking at a C-section, which, Lord-willing, I would prefer to avoid.

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Titus Ryle

Born: February 7, 2012, at 4:49 p.m.
7 pounds, 12 ounces
21 inches long

“For this child I prayed, and the LORD has granted me my petition that I made to him.” ~1 Samuel 1:27

{more pictures here} 


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Counting Down!

Our little boy is due 1 month from today!!

35 Weeks!!

As far as the actual pregnancy itself, I have had it fairly easy.  (The getting there…well, that’s another story.) And, I’ve generally felt pretty good the whole time.  So, it really has gone by incredibly fast…at least from my perspective.  We announced it fairly early, so I know to some, it seems like I have been pregnant forever.

But, either way, it is still a little unreal when I think about just how close we are to meeting our son!!

Especially when I consider that, not too long ago, I really didn’t think we would ever have another (biological) child…

I want to be thankful. For every moment. For every time I get to hear his steady heartbeat. For every ache. For every time I get to see him (via ultrasound).  For every sleepless night. For every time I get to feel his little (and not so little!) kicks.

Because, I realize now, maybe more so than I did with Hannah, that this time is not simply something to be taken for granted…to be endured…to get through…

The truth is, I don’t know, not just when, but if I’ll ever get to experience it again.  And I don’t want to miss out on one moment.

I wouldn’t wish the pain and struggle of infertility and miscarriage on anyone. But, sometimes I do wonder…if more women did have to deal with it, would they – could they – still take these precious moments for granted?

I won’t.  I can’t.

Hannah is my first child.  So, being pregnant with her was a totally new experience.  I enjoyed and treasured every new stage, and flutter, and hiccup, and kick…  Then, as a newborn, and as a toddler…and now as “kid” – everything she did was new, and exciting, and special.

But, in the back of my mind, I always assumed I would get to experience it all again…and relatively soon.

I never dreamed I would have to wait so long…

Even though it didn’t happen the way I would have planned it, or in the time frame that I would have preferred, I am thankful to have gone through it. Because, I can no longer take the ability to get pregnant for granted.  And, I will no longer assume that I am guaranteed a repeat of this experience.

So, even though I can no longer see my toes (I can reach them!!)… I am still just so amazed, and so thankful for this precious, unexpected blessing!


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Book Review (and Giveaway!): How My Soul Yearns

Infertility is something that can affect you at a core level; as women we were created specifically with the ability to produce life within our bodies.  Not being able to create life can have very damaging effects for women because of this created order.


However, there is hope through Christ. The hope that Christ has to offer is for peace and healing in our lives. He may not heal our bodies and allow us to conceive. He may not bring us children through the blessing of adoption. However, He can heal our hurting souls and fill the holes that infertility has left in our hearts and He can give us comfort for walking in this world wounded. (pg. 32, How My Soul Yearns)



Infertility.  It is a difficult concept to grasp.


It is even harder to experience.


Month after month, year after year…


The hope…the anticipation…the expectation…


The heartbreak.


The tears, the resolve, the dizzying cycle.




Seeing as how I am currently 18 weeks pregnant, it may seem a bit odd to you that I am reviewing a book on infertility.


But, what you may not know is that for 6 years, prior to discovering that I was pregnant with this little one, I struggled with what is known as “secondary infertility.”  (In case you are unfamiliar with that term, secondary infertility is an inability to conceive, or carry a child to term, after one or more previous full-term pregnancies.  The estimates vary widely, but it is thought that approximately 30% of infertility in women is secondary infertility.)


If you have not personally experienced infertility in some way, it can be difficult to explain.


And, if you have experienced it, well, no further explanation is needed.


You get it.


Ashley Wells gets it.  She has been there.  She has walked the painful, emotional, and often-lonely path of infertility.  And, now, she is willing to walk that path with you.


In her new e-book How My Soul Yearns: How God Brought Me Through Infertility and Beyond, Ashley shares her experience with infertility, and how the Lord has helped her to overcome the heartbreak and hopelessness…and how He used it in her life, for good.


Without a doubt, this is an emotionally charged topic.  And, given the sensitive and personal nature, it could be very easy to ignore, excuse, or even justify the sinful attitudes and behavior that can often be a part of this struggle.  But, Ashley shares her testimony of hope and God’s grace as she addresses some hard issues – issues of bitterness, discontent, idolatry, and a lack of trust in God.


Ashley shares how she came to see these attitudes for what they truly are:


“I was allowing my God-given desire to become a mother (Genesis 1:28), to become full blown-out idolatry (Colossians 3:5). It was all I thought about;  it consumed every part of my being. I wanted my dream fulfilled, but instead I found myself living in sin. I can sugarcoat it and make it sound better, but sin is what it is and that is what I am going to call it.” (pg. 26)


She goes on,

“Being a mother is a good thing, a great thing even. However, it cannot replace the greatest thing.” (pg. 26)


But, even while clearly calling sin sin, Ashley offers her readers hope and encouragement.  She reminds her readers of truth of 1 John 1:9, “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”  She shares,

It felt so good to be released from the bondage of the sins that I had let take root in my heart and flesh out in my life. It was time to put my life back in God’s hands and allow Him to be in control. I needed to put Him back in place as my first priority. It was time to start walking on the pathway of joy and peace instead of misery and destruction. (pgs. 26-27)


And, she is not afraid to ask some hard questions (of herself, and of her readers):

Is Christ enough?(pg. 34)

If I am never able to get pregnant, is Christ enough?(pg. 34)

Can you truly say that you are satisfied in Christ alone, every day, every hour, every situation? (pg. 35)


In the midst of her struggles, Ashley turned to the pages of Scripture.  And, I appreciate how, throughout this book, she constantly points her readers back to God’s Word as well.


But, perhaps most importantly, she will also consistently remind you that your hope, your joy, your comfort, your satisfaction – your whole identity, as a Christian woman, is not in how many children you do or do not have.  It is in Christ.




The beyond [the aftermath of infertility] is going to look different for each one of us. Some women will eventually be blessed with the gift of conception and give birth to a child (or children). Some women will move towards adoption. Some women will impart life through a career working with children. Some women will lose their desire for children. I’m sure there are other living the beyond scenarios as well. The point is, each of our stories will have a different beyond but they will all have the same purpose, an opportunity to give Him glory. (pg. 52)


Everyone’s experience with infertility is different.  My own experience was different than Ashley’s.  And our individual experiences may be vastly different from yours.


But, over the past several years, I experienced many of the same emotions and disappointments, and struggled with many of the same temptations and sins that Ashley describes.  I wish that this resource had been available to me then.  And, I am so thankful that it is available to women now.


If you have experienced infertility in the past, or if it is currently a part of your everyday life, may I recommend this book?  It will not take the pain away.  It will not change your circumstances.  But, it will help you to refocus your perspective, off of yourself, your disappointment, your trial, and look upward – to our only source of hope and satisfaction.


If you have not experienced infertility, I would recommend this book to you as well.  Why?  The chances are good that you may know someone who has, or is experiencing it.  Maybe you have wondered what to say (or, what not to say).  This book would be a wonderful resource for you, as you seek to minister to, counsel, and encourage your friend, and sister in Christ.




A Giveaway!!


Ashley has graciously offered give away one copy of her e-book, How My Soul Yearns: How God Brought Me Through Infertility and Beyond!


If you would like to be entered simply leave a comment below.  (One comment per person, please.  Duplicate comments will be deleted.)


For extra entries, do one, or all, of the following (and leave a comment, for each, telling me you did):

Like “How My Soul Yearns” on Facebook

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***This giveaway will end at 9:00 (Central Daylight Time) on Friday, September 9, 2011. The winner will be notified via e-mail, and announced on Saturday, September 10, 2011.***

September 9th Update:

The comments on this post have been closed.  The winner will be announced tomorrow (September 10th).


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